just now, just this very moment i perfectly understood, what an incredible i was given in i got to this university, and got in the same place with him. And now i can lose it so easely, it's so awful. Just little mistake led to those consequences, i may lose a great xhance for a good life so easily, it's .. I can't believe i let this happen.
I've been locked up in my head for so long, missing out on everything in real life, i've never lived for those 18 years, not a day, always hiding from everything. My life is empty, and i can partly, well not acually partly, perfectly relate to 'Because of you' by Kelly, i am demage, i am broken, i am abnormal, not in a good way. And i don't know what to do. Why am i falling for him? If i would not feel this, everything would have been so much easier, or maybe not, maybe that is for gets me going, keep me from absolutely given up. I wish i never knew him, i wish that would never happenned, it'd be better for both of us, honestly, there will be nothing good about it. It will never be.
I've been locked up in my head for so long, missing out on everything in real life, i've never lived for those 18 years, not a day, always hiding from everything. My life is empty, and i can partly, well not acually partly, perfectly relate to 'Because of you' by Kelly, i am demage, i am broken, i am abnormal, not in a good way. And i don't know what to do. Why am i falling for him? If i would not feel this, everything would have been so much easier, or maybe not, maybe that is for gets me going, keep me from absolutely given up. I wish i never knew him, i wish that would never happenned, it'd be better for both of us, honestly, there will be nothing good about it. It will never be.