it atarts again. My heart beats so freaking fast and i don't know what to do. But i might actually have an idea of what might be causing it. Because an hour or so ago i got very irritated and kind of angry, but i hold it back completely, so now minutes later it hit me with consequences of holding back such strong feeling, it's so bad for my nerves. And the other reason might be the lack of fresh air, i've opened a window, so maybe i'll get better.
I've got this new programm on my pc, it has a diary section, with a password. So starting tomorrow i'll writing full essays on how the day has passed, every little thing, every little topic that hit me during the day will be mentioned and discussed in that journal. So it's tomorrow, well actually it's today already.
I desperately need sleep. But it's t am and i'm still awake, so i'm going to sleep after classes. I'm gonna get those things for my ears so i'll be completely deaf to the world while i'm sleeping. So that bitch can knock all she wants i'm not gonna open up, so she'll have to use a key.