i hope it won't be too bad.
But...
I don't know what to do with (in) my life, and it's more important than this credit (exam). So, either way everything will be ok. If i fail this one, i can go to another university and start all over again, now that i have more experience in this thing i know what to avoid and on which part of it all to focus. It's not the end of the world, it's just the end of me being here. And it's not that scary anymore. The hard part would be to explain it all th them, to the 'family' and i'm pretty sure they won't understand and support me further on the way. I'll such a dissapointment to them, especialy to her. So, i'll be on my own and a 40yearold baby by my side. I'll go through it. I know i can i just need a reason, a goal, a purpose why to do so. I'll be fine. And honestly i never was scared of leaving this place, i was scared of judgement and punishment from the 'family'. Because that's the only way they ever treated me. So, be ready for scandals, accusation of not being able to do the simplest thing, and being just like Mom. But i used to being apart from those people, so it won't be such a tragedy, besides no one ever will be able to take away music from me. And those guys are all i need, new Marina's, the V's, Maroon 5's albums will come out soon, so i'll be fine. I will. I hope at least.